I am not in the mood

Where can I find the subject,

So that you will not reject?

It is a hard time for me,

Which I don't want it to be.

May I go away from this?

But I don't want to dismiss.

I want to learn something new,

Where I can only find it in you.

She wrote, I read

http://www.scribd.com/RHPG/d/76071799-I-ve-Got-Your-Number-A-Novel-by-Sophie-Kinsella-Excerpt

Yahoo!!!!
Sophie Kinsella is back with her new book.
oh yeah, she is the famous author for the remarkable Shopaholic series.
Her last book was the 'Mini Shopaholic' which was the new addition for the shopaholic series, that was way back in 2010. I got it for my birthday present for myself. :D
Honestly, I haven't finish the book yet. I was too busy with school and business.
I am a fans of Sophie, her books maybe normal chick lit but I love how she arrange the language and the use of joke in her novel.
And now, with this latest book of hers, I should get one for myself too.
It'll be out this February! This month!
And here's the sneak peak for the novel sneak peak
Check it out! I am sure u guys will anticipate for it just like me!

The month of love

Hola February!
How ya all doing in this 3 days of February?
Alright! Mine basically GREAT!
With the Chinese New Year celebration around, which happen to be 15 days celebrations!
oh yeah! Many different open houses everyday, red pocket, good food and cakes of course some gossip to spice up your year. :D
Gossip is a kind of entertainment, isn't it?
oh well, so that's how my life basically for my holiday right now.

And oh yeah!
I am especially happy today, because Bournemouth University (the one that I've been waiting for since last January) had finally call and did an interview with me! A phone interview of course.
And oh yeah! I am so in love with this university. I don't know why, but I know I am gonna make it big there.
I do receive offer from Northumbria uni but I am not so interested with the course they offer.
So I am hoping I passed the interview today and I'll soon receive good news!

Last but not least....
There will be many travelling for me in this few months.
Mom decided to start new business. And so this time I am given the chance to help her.
I might be going to few places in Malaysia and also going back to Miri and Brunei. But solely for business.
I know, going back Miri and Brunei will bring back much memories for me. But who cares! :P
But before that I'll be going to SG again within this month and Jakarta the following month.
After that, my Malaysia and Brunei trip will come in. Before hand, I need to go to Jakarta to settle the movie that I've been discussing with Tysna.
What a holiday. But it's gonna be fun! I recon that this will be my chance to learn more!

Louboutin on ur feet? nice one.

That was what I heard from a young stylo lady sitting next to me on the plane on my way back from SG to MES on 2010 December.

I smiled and told her, it's not Louboutin. Then she answered me, then it must be Steve Madden. I told her is it. 

I was wearing my Steve Madden Carrysa glitter. At that time, it was the hits. As a shoes lover or specifically high heels lover, of course I would love to have it.

And as Louboutin, I never planned to have one before. I know it for its red platform. But never eye one for myself. But after that flight, I decided to aim one. Mom of course won't want to get me one. Because I only want heels and I don't want any flats. 

She hates it when I wear heels and she'll start all her knowledge about how bad is heels for us.

I know she cares about me but I love heels.. I love them.. They're my life.

I used to love them because they make me look tall and slim. Given to I am naturally just 161cm and I had a quite huge tight. So heels helps a lot it making it slender. But now, I found it boost my confidence too and of course it helps in making me feels sexy! :D

My wish right now is to own a pair of Louboutin on my 21st birthday. That'll be the right time.
They say, there's always a time for everything isn't it? :)

When role model speaks up,

Oh yes! Everybody know her, she's Doutzen Kroes, a beautiful and sweet boomshell from Victoria Secret!
AND oh yeah! She's my role model aside from my mama. :)

I love her from the first time I saw her on VS fashion show 2009.
She's sexy but yet she's not the skinny girl next door. I, myself, I know I do not have the skinny and naturally slim body like my mama. I work so hard to be what I am today. I am rather athletic with healthy curves all around. She's someone I look up to, because she is the type of girl that model industry claim 'big' because she has the healthy curves.
I adore how she still enjoy life and still have brilliant career or else how can she be VS angel? :)
And also being one of the top earning model in the world? Am I right?

Well,she's actually better than me. I do starve myself for awhile. Like for few days.
But then now, I decide to eat moderately now after I loses all the fats that I have and I want to keep on exercise. But I hope I can keep track on my exercise, because with my insomnia (cause by my anxiety and worry and thinking of Edrick like every minute and second. which I know he won't.) I normally don't feel good every time I wake up. I can conclude that I don't think I sleep every night.
sigh.. sigh.. I stay up late just to hope I could talk more and share more with Edrick. Because he's busy, he seldom has time for me. He got school work, family, friends and gym to attend to and my slot are the few minutes and seconds. So I got to make use of every minute and second. Though it's very tiring, but worth trying... I know someday I'll get tired, when that day come, just decide what else can I do.

rain pouring...

It's mid-night here,I'm still wide awake...
I have nothing in particular to post, but one thing for sure,
I was so happy yesterday,because finally
Received the letter of offer from Northumbria university for their
Last year in advertising n media.
Well, currently waiting for the one from Bournemouth University.
I hope l'll get good news from them too.
I'm still not sure where go,but sure I I have to choose one.
I was thinking to discuss it with Edrick,but doesn't seems the right time.
He's so busy with his study. I guess, I'll just have to decide it myself.
I bet, Shiy

Lately, I had been gloomy, still gloomy though.
I bet cause of lonely.
And today I found out,my dearly brother bear is also lonely.
He makes me realize that I am not the only one in this world that feels this way.
He's worst than me actually, he has no one to share with.
I still have few god friends to share things with. Lucky me.
I chatted with brother bear he told me, he doesn't know his life purpose.
He makes me starts to think, what is my life purpose too.. Do I have one?
I think I have, my purpose is to have a happy complete family, purpose is to make mom proud to have me as her daughter. Sounds simple eh, but the journey into making this purpose come real is difficult.
Taking this opportunity, I want to thank sister Shinying and dearest Keny!
I forgot that I actually still got you guys to share even when the whole world is turning their back on me. :)
Thank you Sister for always be my best bbm partner! :D I miss you sister Shinying!
good thing about you sister, you sleep late! I always have insomnia, I can turn to you! :p

even if the sky get rough

Things happened.
We say sorry very often.

We cry much.

Misunderstanding happened.

Life is never easy, we know it.

Life is about up and down.

Sometimes, I lost my temper, you lost your patient.

But at the end of the day, when we sit and think about it...

We'll laugh on how fool we are. :)
We know we're worth it....

But one thing for sure, I won't give up on us, even if the sky get rough.

God knows we're worth it. :D