holding back

This situation is going to be mine and his situation on this coming September.

OMG.. How am I going to cope with this..

it's how are we going to cope with this.

It's painful for both of us. Every time I think about it, tear start to flow out. =(

All I can think of is, life is gonna be so boring, yet I still have to fight for it. Because someone is waiting.

I want time to boost faster after this September!

I hate the thought of we have to be so far away.

I hate it when his friends can see him everyday, yet me, as his lover, can't.

What on earth is going on here! Life is just too unfair!

How am I suppose to act on the day he leaves later?

How am I suppose to smile on the day he leaves?

There are this feeling.... feeling that words can't describe.

I feel scared, I feel happiness, I feel nervousness... it's a mix and match feeling.

Where I feel everything at the same time.

And at the same time, don't know what to do, aside from doing well for my future, or I should say, our future. =)

I have tons of scares that haunt me every moment....

But, this is life isn't it??? You'll always have fears that haunt you, but you too have hopes and wishes that become your life motivator.

Life after 10th September gonna we up and down for both of us.

But one thing for sure, I am not giving up on it. =)
Gonna fight for it, instead of being a coward, leaving unfinished relationship behind me.

I might not be able to do it myself, but I know, he'll be there for me too.

We might not have the whole world supporting us, but at least we know we have each other. =)