It Isn't Easy

It isn't easy

being so in love with you

and not being able

to see you every day.

There are times when

I'd give anything just to be

able to gaze into your eyes

or hold you in my arms,

even for a few minutes.

I always feel incomplete,

like a part of me is missing,

when we're not together.

I know that, right now,

this is how things have to be,

but that doesn't make it

any easier to bear.

Every day without you

just reminds me of the joy

you add to my life.

joy that I'm missing... a lot.

So don't forget

that I love you,

that I'm thinking of you,

and that I'm counting every

minute until we're together again. 

(Linda Lee Elrod)

I found this poem from Hallmark card that I saw yesterday in precious thots.
The poem is about love that is separated by distance.
Anyway, there are few cards for long distance love. But I found this similar with what I am struggling right now.
Feels like I'm half dead everyday..
I know I should live this way. I never been like this before, so it is kinda hard for me to find a way to pick up everything from the start.
Start everything from a scratch..
I just wish everything end as soon as possible...

Holiday worsen everything. If there's something to do, at least I don't have to have too much thinking or imagination about negative thoughts..
I want school to start as soon as possible too...
2012 seems so far away.. There are three months to go, and days seems so slow.
I may be wishing for 2012 now, but later on, I guess I will complain about 2012 again.. hmmm...
Human beings, they never satisfy with everything they have... am I right?