broken but still holding on....

Sometimes, when you come to the lowest point of your life, you wish that when you wake up,
you are someone who you want yourself to be.
There are times when I am like that too..
I sometimes wish, I am those girls who study business, accounting, marketing, management and not mass communication.
I wish I am a girl who loves to go to saloon, can't live without fashion, those good looking girl with ideal weight who looks good in wearing anything.
Sometimes, I wish I have a long sleek hair which makes every girls jealous of me every time when they see me.
I wish I am smart and loving and kind at the same time. You know.. those the type of dream girl that every guys want to be with and every girls want to be.
I wish I am those girl, not just girl but the real girl who can look so girly and yet still can be so strong and smart and at the same time, girl that guys want to protect.

Well.... from all the things that I mention above I am non of them.
I am not smart, not pretty nor cute, not fun, not brave, not a girl that guy would want to protect, not a girl who's willing to spend her whole day in saloon.
This is life isn't it? it never goes with what you wish.. Everything just happen to like what it is design to be.
But to think about, I am still lucky cause I have many friends that I know still care about me when I am feeling down. :)
Thanks!
I appreciate all of your time and existence all this while.
Thanks for making some time for me even you are all in the midst of sth. One of my friend even told me, if I am not stuck in my hometown, she'll cancel all her meeting and have an afternoon tea with me. what an adorable I have. :) I love you all!