Where as me, I loosing myself in December.
I don't know where the cheerful, happy, funny Novia gone...
This few days of December had not really been a good day for me.
Overall, it is actually a good day for everyone else. I am having good time too. But why am I feeling sth is missing?
I thought I was too bored staying at home, I find some activities like extending my ballet and skipping time, and I start on a little website project of my own. And now my friend is asking for my help to polish up his work.
Still, I feel sth is missing.. :(
Mama is being so kind that she listen to me bragging I am bored, down, sad bla bla bla everyday.
Soon, she'll be on her business trip again. Boyfriend is busy with his study...
Wonder who should I turn to when I am not feeling well. Hmm....
Maybe my doggie. She does a good job of it! :D
I should figure out what is wrong with me.
At times, I am asking myself, am I being to kind n easy to others that they just take me for granted?
Why I feel like everyone is telling a lie, everyone is using me??
I no longer know the truth out there. I guess, I should start to be a good liar, not a bad actress like I am now.
Why everybody leaves when I need them and come back only when they need me?
But why when I am doing the same, I feel uneasy?
OH! How I want to just escape from this good good mind of mine and just be someone who everyone is being, since no one is appreciating this act of mine.
I just want a break from everything that's going on..
I need a escapade from everything...
Though I know, it'll only worsen my thoughts and won't improve the situation...
BUT..........
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