Happy New Year peeps!!

Greeting to everyone from ME! :)
Yeah! It's another year already.
How had 2011 treat you all???
As for me, 2011 has been good and bad at the same time. ;D
I am able to fulfill my 2011 resolution.
I got a hot good boyfriend, I end 2011 year at the weight of 53kg,and one more resolution..... er....
Well, count it as I fulfill all..
Having someone else in the start of the year is super cool and excited at the same time. :)
Many great things like finishing Higher Diploma in this year, making new circle of friends and
at the same time drawing gap for some old buddies.
Aside from school and friends experiences, I also had a great working experiences like working as a teacher! :)
There had been sad moment in 2011 too, like farewell and good byes.
But some good bye is a must and it is actually a good bye that will bring a brighter hello.
A good bye for a brighter future who would stop others especially their loves one from doing so?
some goodbye is a farewell forever, and we shall see each other again when time allows, maybe 5 years or more. farewell friends.
Well, basically, love,family,school and work wraps up my 2011.
I should say, it's a furious and fruitful 2011.
Thanks to you all for filling in my 2011.


2012 resolutions:
-shall keep fit, and tone up more!
-be a good daughter and girlfriend.
-love myself! :)

Wishing everyone have a wonderful,fruitful and fantastic year in 2012!!!
I love you all! ;)

what goes up must come down

I know a girl, a girl who always seeks for attention from everyone.
because she knows, no one put her first,  except her parents.
no matter how hard and good she tried, she'll always come second in everybody's thought.
That girl once told me, she's tired of being everybody second choice and second thought.
She asked me what should she does to make herself at least someone first choice.
Well, I don't know how to answer her,because I am never anyone first choice except my parents too.
I pity her for being so lonely and lack of attention and care. But why so sad when we still have our parents? :)
I should just tell her, don't bother about others first. Someday, I am sure both of us will find at least someone who'll put us first, on top of everything.
And when that day come, those who let us down every time, will realize we no longer there trying hard for them.
My dear friend,someday,someone will appreciate us the way we want and the way we deserve it.
Don't you worry.
I believe in that. and both of us will be lucky enough to see people around us regret of what they've done. :)
Happy New Year, friend! :)

MERRY CHRISTMAS!

YES! A Merry Christmas to all of you around the world from ME, JojoTheHero!
Nothing much about this year Christmas except for great christmas eve dinner and church. A ritual that I practice every year with family and will practice in the future.
But if this year Christmas is a bit different where I got to skype with lovely boyfriend while dong X'mas countdown! :D
My Christmas will be a better day if he's around. Yeah! I miss him very much. I do.
Well, at least my Christmas is a lot better than his, because I still have family around.

Spending my lonely December alone, it suddenly brings me back to last December.
It was when I meet Edrick again. Last December was a good one, because I got to spend it in JB, held a mini Christmas concert at Music Clinic with friends and spend it with Jooen and Michelle in SG for few days and back to Medan only 3 days before Christmas.
Then a post Christmas bbq at Ferdisa's which brought together me and Edrick once again.
If that time, I refuse to come, I won't meet him. And my sole purpose to join was because I had a feeling I'll meet him there, given to the list of guests invited. :P
I was happy to finally see him again, he's doing good and fine. And he's still the old him. :) The old him who care for others and when he's hurt no one realize it. But me, is also being me, always make sure he's not out of my sight but at the same time, make sure he doesn't notice my care. Why am I acting that way? I don't know.Mainly because I was too shy. Never came across my mind that we're still so close like we used to be and the feeling is just great! :D
What shock me is that his feeling for me is still there after all this time. And it even surprise me when we finally got back together on 1st day of 2011.
Last December was just cool. It'll be more perfect if I wasn't that cool and letting my pride gets into my true feelings which was to spend my new year eve with Edrick.
Never mind, we can always spend it later, coming years. :D I am sure, we will,together. :)

Katharine McPhee - It's Not Christmas Without You

This Christmas again, my loves one is far away from me.
This time round is worst. He's in US and I am stuck in Medan. :(
Next year will be even worst, I guess..

I just don't dare to imagine and think about it too much.
This long distance thing is scaring and killing me sometimes.

I am dying cause of it too..
I don't even have any Christmas spirit. All I can think of is Edrick Edrick and Edrick.

True that mom is here, it makes life and christmas so much better compare to Edrick's Christmas.

But, it's just something is missing. Or I rather said someone is missing.

I don't have to wonder if he's thinking of me or not. because I know he does.

So do I.

I just wish, this distance can be shorter or else, it won't bring any conclusion but an end to our relationship.

Because it's impossible to meet up, we seldom go online or phone call.

I know the feeling is there, but everything is just so dead isn't it?
We'll get tired or I should say we're tired with this condition, and we might choose to set each other free.

I am just wondering, will our life be better if we're not together now.
Well, at least we don't have to have the missing each other feeling.

I just wish, the distance could be shorter, and time zone could be the same.

That, would be enough...

VanNess 吳建豪《有你在》原版MV

太 多 话 哽 在 我 胸 怀
too much words stuck in my heart
太 倔 强 不 要 你 陪 伴
too stubborn that I refuse you to accompany me
来 不 及 证 明 的 未 来
the future that i couldn't prove in time
会 在 哪 为 了 我 等 待?
where could it be waiting for me?

有 你 在 牵 手 就 能 取 暖
with you here, holding hands can give me warmth.
有 你 在 拥 抱 就 能 勇 敢
with you here, embracing you give me courage.
如 果 时 间 倒 转 有 你 在
if I could turn back time,
你 不 喜 欢 的 我 会 改
with you here, I'll change all things that you don't like.
有 你 在 平 凡 就 不 平 凡
with you here, ordinary become extraordinary.
有 你 在 遗 憾 就 能 美 满
with you here, regrets become bliss.
如 果 生 命 重 来 我 坦 白
if life can start over, I'll be honest,
你 会 懂 我 的 爱
and you will understand my love.

当 秘 密 被 真 心 揭 开
When secrets revealed by sincerity
当 伤 害 我 全 都 明 白
When it hurts, I completely understand
带 回 来 回 忆 和 期 待
it brings back memory and anticipation
只 有 你 不 能 被 替 代

you are the only one that's impossible to be replace

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Recently, I just finished a Taiwan drama, Material Queen.
It was a drama played by Vanness Wu, no doubt that I am his fans since he first joined entertainment world in a famous Taiwan boyband, F4.
Back then I was only primary5. And I am crazy over this 6pack guy!
PROVEN! That I am muscle lover.. :D

Back to the drama!
It's a worth watching drama.
At least, it taught us (especially material girls out there), money is not everything. Youshould find a true love that will cheer u up at anytime at any situation. But life never promise you it'll be smooth always.
There'll also be ups and down. Being wealthy enough to full-fill your luxury needs won't promise you for easy life. It will be harder than you think.
Trust me, I've been there, I am there. It's more tiring that being normal.
Aside from that, it also remind us not to underestimate or look down on others.?
Because....
Keep in mind, the world is a sphere, what goes around;comes around.

Apparently, the song I posted above is one of the soundtrack from the drama.
Look through the lyric carefully, it is so well written. I love it very much!
plus! The singer is also by Vanness! :)
It's my lullaby, my fun time song, my sad song, should just name it, every moment song.
The feel there!
Hope you'll all like it too!

Needing the Christmas mood.

OMG....
it's already the 10th  day of December...
And....... doesn't look like December has done something good to me.
Mama is away and life is basically dead here. Then Edrick is busy with his final, so I guess, I just want to stay away from him a bit, just so he could concentrate n focus on his study.
Well, staying away doesn't mean we are not contacting each other. It's just, less often.
I MISS HIM, very much. :(
I wish I could see him again very soon.. But very soon could be 1 or 2 more years.. but what to do.. :(
I will just have to accept this fact.
Anyway.... as long as we're still seeing each other later on as a boy-girl friend, I don't care. :) I just want to enjoy everything with him!

I know Christmas is almost here, but I see no sign of Christmas at all in Medan.
No street decorations or any big celebration for it. :(
But some big shopping malls are putting some effort in making this Christmas happening.
I wonder how my Christmas gonna  be. Another lonely Christmas without boyfriend around.
Only this time is similar to what happened to me in Christmas 2007, where I am in relationship, but boyfriend was in Singapore. Or I should say, just reach there. And now it's happening again in Christmas 2011. What funny is, I still got the same boyfriend from 2007 who's not spending Christmas with me, after that 4 years of break..
I don't know and not sure how I spent the 4 years Christmas single. Well, last Christmas was not really single. Maybe some blur stuffs going on between me and someone else. But it's just another history written on my life. :)

10 bad days of December, I just wish from the 11th, I can have a good n great December.

a fresh start

In 3 more weeks, we'll be waving good bye to 2011.
Looking back, year 2011 has been a wonderful, marvelous and at the same time complain year for me.
Many good things had happened so far, same goes to bad things.
Around this time, let me take a look if my resolution are all full-filled?
Well, I got a hot and smart boyfriend, I keep fit and manage to lose 6 kg towards the years last but not least, being myself.
hmm.. for the last resolution, I am not sure if I have reach it.
I am only myself when I am with certain people. Like with mom, edrick, roomie, keny, sister ssy and some few close friends.
So, I guess that does not really fully achieve.
This 2011, has been a great year for me because all of my friends played a part in colouring it.
It has also been a hectic and stuffy year because of bad life experiences which shape me to what I am today.
Despite all that's happening, I'm glad I'm still living. :)
Many things have change, nothing remians the same.
I change a lot too... I realize that. Just I don't know am I changing to a better one
Or someone worse.. :(

Lost in December.....

Others might have snow in December, love in December, Santa and X'mas in December...
Where as me, I loosing myself in December.
I don't know where the cheerful, happy, funny Novia gone...
This few days of December had not really been a good day for me.
Overall, it is actually a good day for everyone else. I am having good time too. But why am I feeling sth is missing?
I thought I was too bored staying at home, I find some activities like extending my ballet and skipping time, and I start on a little website project of my own. And now my friend is asking for my help to polish up his work.
Still, I feel sth is missing.. :(
Mama is being so kind that she listen to me bragging I am bored, down, sad bla bla bla everyday.
Soon, she'll be on her business trip again. Boyfriend is busy with his study...
Wonder who should I turn to when I am not feeling well. Hmm....
Maybe my doggie. She does a good job of it! :D
I should figure out what is wrong with me.

At times, I am asking myself, am I being to kind n easy to others that they just take me for granted?
Why I feel like everyone is telling a lie, everyone is using me??
I no longer know the truth out there. I guess, I should start to be a good liar, not a bad actress like I am now.
Why everybody leaves when I need them and come back only when they need me?
But why when I am doing the same, I feel uneasy?
OH! How I want to just escape from this good good mind of mine and just be someone who everyone is being, since no one is appreciating this act of mine.
I just want a break from everything that's going on..
I need a escapade from everything...
Though I know, it'll only worsen my thoughts and won't improve the situation...
BUT..........

The month of peace,bless,care,hope and grace...

HOLA DECEMBER!
OMG.. DECEMBER I'M IN LOVE!
I've been waiting for this month for 11 months and finally, December is here.
True that I love December more than my birth month. Simply because I love the feel of Christmas!
The decoration, snow, songs and the festive itself.
Cross my finger and hope the rest of my December day will be great!
Because my 1st day of December is not any good.. So many disappointed things happened.
Well, still life is not that bad..

Last November was my last day of working as a teacher..
I stop teaching already because of some minor dispute happen between school admin and my mom.
So she asked me to stop teaching!
I miss my students very much.. :(
They are both angels and devils to me. :P
But I manage to took picture together with them..
It was such a good memory to ever have them in my life, in my 2011 life.
I thankful for such opportunity and experience that not everyone could get.
I learn to understand 19 kids psychology at the same time, understand their wants and needs
and at the same time, how to make sure everyone is happy enjoy my lesson but also improving.
It was not an easy task to make sure they like you and also respect you at the same time.
I love them and I care a lot about them. I know they are especially seeking for my attention than from other teachers.
They can play with me after class but in the class, they quite respect me.
Most teachers there know that they like me very much. Teachers there often said, 'Novia, those P1 kids, like you very much, especially Sky and Clifton. You are more like their sister than their teacher.'
OMG.. is that a compliment or? hahaha!
I know they treat me special, though at times they give me problems... But at the end of the day, I couldn't blame them. I still loves them. and believe it or not, I wish to see them again..
They are cutie little smart monsters of mine! :D
I cherish the one and a half months given to me to spend it with them. :) Thanks God for it!