When role model speaks up,

Oh yes! Everybody know her, she's Doutzen Kroes, a beautiful and sweet boomshell from Victoria Secret!
AND oh yeah! She's my role model aside from my mama. :)

I love her from the first time I saw her on VS fashion show 2009.
She's sexy but yet she's not the skinny girl next door. I, myself, I know I do not have the skinny and naturally slim body like my mama. I work so hard to be what I am today. I am rather athletic with healthy curves all around. She's someone I look up to, because she is the type of girl that model industry claim 'big' because she has the healthy curves.
I adore how she still enjoy life and still have brilliant career or else how can she be VS angel? :)
And also being one of the top earning model in the world? Am I right?

Well,she's actually better than me. I do starve myself for awhile. Like for few days.
But then now, I decide to eat moderately now after I loses all the fats that I have and I want to keep on exercise. But I hope I can keep track on my exercise, because with my insomnia (cause by my anxiety and worry and thinking of Edrick like every minute and second. which I know he won't.) I normally don't feel good every time I wake up. I can conclude that I don't think I sleep every night.
sigh.. sigh.. I stay up late just to hope I could talk more and share more with Edrick. Because he's busy, he seldom has time for me. He got school work, family, friends and gym to attend to and my slot are the few minutes and seconds. So I got to make use of every minute and second. Though it's very tiring, but worth trying... I know someday I'll get tired, when that day come, just decide what else can I do.