Sitting next to my room's window and watching the sky changes its colour and I was counting and looking back, what did I miss in life and what have did wrong so that I am feeling like this right now.
I don't know what I miss, because people are keeping things close to themselves.
How can I know what I missed?
Sometimes I ask myself, is it only me, or is it because of me that people start to take me for granted?
My time, my care, my attention, they are all being taken for granted. I know that clearly.
And this dumb me, still give in so much for others.
sigh... I just wish that someday, there'll be someone who'll appreciate my time, care and attention. Won't take it for granted at all. And will give me more than I gave.
Because sometimes , I realize, it's cool to be selfish, and too fool to be a good person.
I think I am selfish enough right now.
But it seems like, the world and people themselves is getting worse and so I should also follow the swift.
I learn that at the end of the day, non of your friends or anyone near you will care about what you're up to, how you are doing or how you're feeling.
If you're good, they'll come close to you ; when they needed you, they'll be just right next to you.
But when you needed them, when you tell them how you feel and when you want to talk to them about how you're doing.... they're no longer there, they are busy with their stuffs.
And yet I am all alone thinking of will they be alright after what had happened? how are they now? what are they up to now?
I am tired of thinking about others. Can I just think about myself, be selfish and left everybody behind just like how they did to me for awhile?
Because I know, they'll only love me at goodbye....
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