沉默是我最後溫柔 是因為我太愛你

安静了 (silence)

只剩下鋼琴陪我站在這裡
only the piano is left over to talk with me for a day
夢想中屬於我們的婚禮
The wedding that we dreamt about
卻成了 單人結婚進行曲
Has become the tune of someone walking down the aisle alone
在這場愛情角力的拔河裡
In this love tug-of-war, to love me or to love you
愛我還是愛你 你選擇了自己
You chose yourself


撒嬌的 可愛的 黏人的 愛哭的 照片裡 曾經的都是你喜歡的
cute, intimate, love to cry, All the photos contains memories that you like
如今我還在原地 你卻走回你的記憶
Till today I'm still at the starting point, but you have already walked back into your memories


你說我愛你太多 就快要把你淹沒
u said i love u too much, as if i'm drowning u
你害怕幸福短暫一秒就崩落
you're scared of happiness, in one second, you'll break down
分開是一種解脫 讓你好好的想過
Breaking up is a form of relief; it allows you to think through carefully
我想要的那片天空 你是不是能夠給我
Can you give me that life that I want

你說我給你太多 卻不能給我什麼
u said i give u too much, but u can't give me anything
分不清激情 承諾 永恆或迷惑
can't tell the difference between passion, promise, forever or confusion
愛情是一道傷口 我們各自苦痛
love is like a scar, we all have our own pain
沉默是我最後溫柔 是因為我太愛你
being silent is my last choice of caring it's because i love u too much

只剩下鋼琴陪我站在這裡
only the piano is left over to talk with me for a day
夢想中屬於我們的婚禮 安靜了 在我枕邊的夢裡
The marriage between us that I've always dreamt of Has been silenced in my night-long dream
我知道相愛原本就不容易
i know that loving each other is not easy
愛不是1加1 努力就有結局
love isn't 1+1, hard-work will have it's ending

撒嬌的 可愛的 黏人的 愛哭的 照片裡 曾經的都是愛著你的
cute, intimate, love to cry,from all the photos we've taken it can be seen how much I once loved you
臉頰的淚還溫熱 卻沒有人握我的手
The tears on my cheeks are still warm, yet there's no one holding my hand

你說我愛你太多 就快要把你淹沒
u said i love u too much, as if i'm drowning u
你害怕幸福短暫一秒就崩落
you're scared of happiness, in one second, you'll break down
分開是一種解脫 讓你好好的想過
Breaking up is a form of relief; it allows you to think through carefully
我想要的那片天空 你是不是能夠給我
Can you give me that life that I want


你說我給你太多 卻不能給我什麼
u said i give u too much, but u can't give me anything
分不清激情 承諾 永恆或迷惑
can't tell the difference between passion, promise, forever or confusion
愛情是一道傷口 我們各自苦痛
love is like a scar, we all have our own pain
沉默是我最後溫柔 是因為我太愛你
being silent is my last choice of caring, it's because i love u too much.

Today's special moments are tomorrow's memories

Edrick decided to set both of us free from our one and more year relationship.
We both are exhausted cause of this long distance relationship.
I know it's hard for both of us. It's hard on me, I know it's even harder on his side.
I know it took him along time to decide this. I know it. He must had think how bad and how sad I will.
But I guess, at the end he's still the selfish Edrick that I know from the very first day we met.
He choose to end this.
It hurt me but I know, it hurt him more.
The very one last thing that I know about him is, he doesn't like to see me being hurt. I know very well, he loves me very much.
Relationship stress him very much, I know. He can's concentrate on his studies and I don't want that.
It's always been my concern. And finally he said it out himself.
I am glad that he knows what's best for him. :) I am happy for him.
I love him very much too, and I myself am selfish too. I wish we could still continue with this relationship.
But if it'll be better for him by ending this, I am willing to do so.
At least, this is the very one last thing I can do for him, the man that I love very much.
I know, it's gonna be hard for me to love again. It will. And I don't think I can love this much anymore.
The day I fall for him, is the day where I gave all my heart for him, it's close for him.

It'll took months and years to mend this broken heart, because heart that's being broke twice is not heart that can be easily mend. I just can't believe myself, even after being hurt I still care and still love just like before. What a fool I am.
But I know, by ending this it'll be better for him. He could finally hang out with his friends without any hard feelings because of having girlfriend. He could concentrate on studies,without have to bother replying my text and waking up for skype. He can do what-ever things he wishes to do that can't be done because of this relationship status that hinders him. I am glad because of that.
I am moving on, but my heart is not moving on. My person, will move on, because time never stops and I hope as time goes by, this broken heart will be completely mend, by leaving a clear surface and scar within.

I may fall in love again, this is for sure. But I know I won't love this much anymore. Because once it's gone with him, it's gone forever.
Next time if I really found someone who loves me, I will appreciate him. I won't hurt him. But I can't promise to love him as much as I love Edrick.
Thanks to him, thank you that he came to my life once again. He makes me realize what a wonderful person I am. He makes me see I am beyond what I think I am. And he let me know that someone who loves me very much, does exist in this world, it's him.
I thank him for all the memories that he gave me, it was such a wonderful things to keep.
And I thanks God that I found him.
Deep down in me, I hope that time and distance and God will once again, find us in the future.
And I hope next time, will be the right time, right place and the right person,him.
But if we can't, I pray for his best and I pray for he will find someone who loves him that won't hurt him, because his heart is sensitive and fragile,very fragile.
I love you, Edrick Reinaldo Wijaya.

I am not in the mood

Where can I find the subject,

So that you will not reject?

It is a hard time for me,

Which I don't want it to be.

May I go away from this?

But I don't want to dismiss.

I want to learn something new,

Where I can only find it in you.

She wrote, I read

http://www.scribd.com/RHPG/d/76071799-I-ve-Got-Your-Number-A-Novel-by-Sophie-Kinsella-Excerpt

Yahoo!!!!
Sophie Kinsella is back with her new book.
oh yeah, she is the famous author for the remarkable Shopaholic series.
Her last book was the 'Mini Shopaholic' which was the new addition for the shopaholic series, that was way back in 2010. I got it for my birthday present for myself. :D
Honestly, I haven't finish the book yet. I was too busy with school and business.
I am a fans of Sophie, her books maybe normal chick lit but I love how she arrange the language and the use of joke in her novel.
And now, with this latest book of hers, I should get one for myself too.
It'll be out this February! This month!
And here's the sneak peak for the novel sneak peak
Check it out! I am sure u guys will anticipate for it just like me!

The month of love

Hola February!
How ya all doing in this 3 days of February?
Alright! Mine basically GREAT!
With the Chinese New Year celebration around, which happen to be 15 days celebrations!
oh yeah! Many different open houses everyday, red pocket, good food and cakes of course some gossip to spice up your year. :D
Gossip is a kind of entertainment, isn't it?
oh well, so that's how my life basically for my holiday right now.

And oh yeah!
I am especially happy today, because Bournemouth University (the one that I've been waiting for since last January) had finally call and did an interview with me! A phone interview of course.
And oh yeah! I am so in love with this university. I don't know why, but I know I am gonna make it big there.
I do receive offer from Northumbria uni but I am not so interested with the course they offer.
So I am hoping I passed the interview today and I'll soon receive good news!

Last but not least....
There will be many travelling for me in this few months.
Mom decided to start new business. And so this time I am given the chance to help her.
I might be going to few places in Malaysia and also going back to Miri and Brunei. But solely for business.
I know, going back Miri and Brunei will bring back much memories for me. But who cares! :P
But before that I'll be going to SG again within this month and Jakarta the following month.
After that, my Malaysia and Brunei trip will come in. Before hand, I need to go to Jakarta to settle the movie that I've been discussing with Tysna.
What a holiday. But it's gonna be fun! I recon that this will be my chance to learn more!