my sweet heart. i miss her.

tralalalalala..

my happy day in spore. with my friends. OWH. i miss them..
and... they force me to learn cycling. ;(

ah.. i know. they just love me. they want me to learn sth NEW..

and as a result, i am so tired now. :(

My docter appointment is tomorrow. i am so nervous.....

I am wondering.

How is ahjo,shingying and pris doing?

i miss them too..:)

when i was taking bus in spore, although i am with my old friends,but still i miss them.

cause, in miri, we took bus together.hahahaha.. talk loudly in the bus with shingyin.

:)

GOOD BYE FOUNDATION SEMESTER 1!!!

Today, our last 2 papers.

each paper is 2 hours. But, do we need 2 hours to finish it? As the first hour pass... We, all the media students, stand up!! Yay!! And submit our paper. Oh.. Life is easier now.. :)

Took several pictures....

and..

Having a nice and calm dinner with Mr.Roy and His Wify.

I bet, nos Shingyin is home. Home sweet home. I miss her already. She is very noisy like fly in my ear. ;) Ah.. nevermind. I am home, soon. In no time. I am Home soon. LOL!

SHINGYIN IS GOING HOME SOON..
IN FEW HOURS.
She is very happy now. Done with her packing.
And, I think my IT paper sucks and.... Two more paper to take for tomorrow.
TWO MORE FINAL THINGS TO DO BEFORE GO HOME. :)
then...then..

shingyin sis! remember to MMS me hor. Take a picture of ur new phone and everything.
I don't want to miss a thing. :)
My number is set in ur phone. :)
Love you.
Signing OFF now.
Gotta wake up early for tomorrow paper.
Love you..
XOXO

Ok, Here I am.
Blogging. Because, i think I might screw up my IT exam tomorrow. :)
Then............
Ah, at the same time now. I am wathing youtube.
A show inteviewing him and...
I found out, I am just like him. ;) Our hobbies and fav food and also some characteristic.
He loves to eat. I love to eat.
He loves eeg tart. OMG!!! I can eat so many eeg tart in a day. :) Eeg tart is my life.
He loves to nag. I love to nag. :) (at some point).
hahahahahaha..
he's such a big bro! big bro!! :)
Ah and... He loves and wants to have a family. Me too.. :)
Both of us love work out!!
My idol is RAIN... but, his character is just....... far2 from me. :)
Ah.. I am hopping that someday, soon hopefully. I will become a star like Wu Zhun. :)

DEAR.. DEAR...
today is my first time, taking exam in foundation yay!!
ah, not to mention the IT mid-term. Cause it don't really look like a exam. :)
Hopefully i'll pass.. pass this semester. :)
This exam nearly look like o-lvl exam.
Where, I had about 2 weeks to prepare for my history and english paper. I didn't actually really prepare. Then few 2 days for both maths and business paper. :)
hahahaha.. :)

"GOOD LUCK for Moral studies students. "

At last, Adi show me his new gay tattoo. What kind of tattoo is that? His new tattoo is definatly very wierd. I mean, i don't really like a color tattoo. But, so far it's not my tattoo, fine with me.
If I am going to tattoo myself, i will not make a color tattoo.hahahaha.
Well, he said his tattoo is a picture of rabit,fire and cancer? I can't really spot all those object. :(
Maybe I need to see it life. Probably will be better. :)
He is defenatly, addict to tattoo. He just get his name tatoo in April and now, he is making a new one. Piuh....

Nah, because, I am bored with all my books and notes, i decided to edit all Adi's tattoo into a picture and... this is it.
I like tattoo, but, i scare once i tattoo it on my skin, i will cry. Because, it's painful. :)
And, one more I get bored easily and maybe i will regreat . :D
But i really want to have one. Small one is enough, hmmm....tattoo it on lower back!
Ah, maybe not. Temporary tattoo will do for this period of time. :)

PHIUH!!...
Exam aura... Exam.Exam.ExAm.eXaM.exAm.....
with just a click and EXAM is here.
Which mean, I am home soon. :)
Hey, can I just go home peacefully,without have to worry about my result?

I am blogging, to kill my boredom. I have been sitting here, without facebooking, all I do is just revising my IT.
*sigh.
I am world IT dummIES. :)
I hope, with the effort that I put in, I can pass this subject. Cause, I am not IT pro lah...
:) :)
Pray,pray and pray.... hope everyone will pass this semester.

AHJO, SHINYING.. I keep on thinking the sad drama.. :) So sad, I want to buy the original one.
I have so many wishlist...
-Nicholas Teo's 09 album.
-Boys Over Flower 1st soundtrack ( I plan to collect all of them)
-Tree of Heaven box dvd.
HOW?HOW?HOW?HOW?
TOOOOOOO MANY THINGS TO BUY... AHJO, SHINYING HELP ME OOOUTT!

alright, back to my studies!

Yeah!!!

Novia is ending her crying session.
After watching TREE OF HEAVEN. One silly sad Korean drama. I call it silly cause i think i am FOOL enough to watch it. I had been crying, sobbing since the second episode. I am very sure, if I hadn't watch the ending first, then i will not be so sad. I jump from episode 1 to 10. :) [style nonton ala novia]. This drama is quite old, but I watch it just for the sake of Lee Wan. He is the main role in this drama. I have become his fans since I watch his drama, LET'S GO TO BEACH. Which is release before this SAD,MELANCHOLY DRAMA.

Now i could see, tons of tissue papers in my dust bin. :] wakakakakaka.

This drama is too interesting. The story of this lover is too touchy. I just can't explain it. But, if you ppl want to watch it, should prepare tissues paper and, watch episode 1 then skip to 10. Doing this will surely make you ppl flow and want to follow this drama.

There is no words for me to describe this drama. It too many thumbs up. I. never really being touch by drama. I had watch so many drama and i love to skip every one of it. Even Boys before Flower. I skiped some part of it.But for this one, i just can't skip... :):)

TRY THE DRAMA, for the one who haven't watch it. :) Lovely.

I am happy now. I had cry out my BURDEN through this drama.. This drama reminds me about LV. :)

Still, the remnants are there.

Whatever that is being crafted will always br there.

It won't vanish, even as the time pass by. :) But, time will only make the remnants become an unforgetable and percious memory.

Finnaly.. I am now in holiday mood. But, semesteral exam bothers me. :( (not only me i guess, all my friends).

I had been very busy for this whole week.
But, i had done something PRODUCTIVE.
SEE.....
Monday - Wednesday : MAGAZINE PROJECT
For this special project, i had skipped my sleep and nap. :(
But, it the result turn out better than we( Ahjo, Mona, Mary, Pris and me) thought.

Wednesday - Friday : ESSAY and Repot
Okay, for this essay. Thanks to Novia that had cause herself in trouble.

Tralalalalalala...
after those workload, a city tour is a good treat for me. :)
In the afternoon, after submitting all assingments;
Me, Ahjo, Shing yin, jiu han and ahao went to boulevard and bintang. hahahaha..
Yesterday was fun and tiring.
Ah.... i bought a nother pack of cadbury freddo. :) cute frog. only 12 in a package. :(

My little obsession with chocolate is getting more and more. :)

DONE.DONE.DONE



I'll update soon.
not today, i am a little too tired. :)
and I am HAPPY NOW!

Another Asia basketball competition in MEDAN. :)
BUT!! why i am not in Medan right now?? I watched last game, FIBA-ASIS WOMEN U18 last November. Recalling, it was my o-level exam season. But still, me and Michelle spend our time shoutting and yelled to support the players. China is my fav team. They had been leading for 7 years winning this FIBA, but for the last game, it was taken by Japan, China as runner up. Luckily i was not there for the final game. Cause i already had the bad feeling. China is loosing the game. :(
That was so 2008. Now, 2009 I can't be there, at Lanud, to watch this fantastic game.
Adi, told me to come back to medan first to watch the game then go back to Miri to take test. Is he insane? but, he said, there is always a chance to watch.. don't worry.
ONE UNACCEPTABLE REALITY, HE SAID I AM LAZY. I AM NOT COMPLETING MY MAGAZINE.. actually, i am better than him. hahaha. he is lazier compare to me.

AH...justin call. OH NO!! I MISS HIM SOO MUCH. I JUST FEEL LIKE WANT TO HUG HIM NOW~~~ THIS MOMMENT! I HAD BEEN TRYING TO CALL HIM, BUT SEEM LIKE NO ONE IS ANSWERING MY CALL.
I WAS MELT WHEN HE SAID," jie jie wo hen xiang jie jie. jie jie, ni ci shi hui lai? "
ah..i miss my little cousin. i love him. i love him. i love him. i love JUSTIN!!! don't ask me about Edwin, i just so so toward him :)

Cute and funny reality, me and mary were chassing for the bus yesterday.
there is no need to chase for it, since it is going to come back from the other way.hahahahaha..

I wonder, is there a person who look almost like me out there, on the other part of the earth?
(Don't include lee jun ki, job is being done over his face and i don't get why people said we look alike. Though at some point, i can feel it too. specially when my hair is long.)

This identical twins question pop up in my mind just like that, because lately i have been seeing Adi identical twins in Curtin. WOW!!! A BIG WOW!!
Well their face look quite alike.
Eccept from Adi has lots of pimple, this twins (or i call him MPH) doesn't really have pimple. And, Adi has the body, MPH doesn't have it. Adi has the cool tattoo. MPH? i bet no.
So..... Adi is the winner!!! Go ADI!!! hahahaha..

I'll be back in Medan. Soon..... :)
I can't describe how happy i am. But, on the other hand, i have to face a reality. The decision has to be made, whether letting go or keep it up with the whole dream. :) I am kindda nervouse and scared though. I want to keep it up, but i should have good response from the other side too. Or else, things can't settle.

Tralalallalalalalala..
Just search through my face book. Looking for my old friends from Methodist2.
And look around others photo.
I realize something, today teenage girl dress older than they supposed to be. :(
THIS IS TERRIBLE :s

HOW ON EARTH IS THIS HAPPENING?
NAH... it is because of our media. The magazine that this teen girls are reading is leading them to a mature way.
In my opinion, they should enjoy their teen life. Just like me. :) (CIEHHHH)
Well, what i mean is, teen girl look inappropriate to wear those old lady dress.
Maybe, it is still not too old for you to use hello kitty, princess and barbie. Tell you, i am still using those kind of things. I have barbie and princess pyjamas. I have princess jacket. Kim Possible skirt. SEE... (well there's nothing wrong with me, owning those stuffs)
If you're 26, and u wear those princess thing, just imagine how will you look? UNACCEPTABLE!
Well, it is trendy to follow those fashion trend. But why you want to make yourself look old just because you deadly want to follow trend?
I admit that, wearing dress is pretty and sweet, but at least you should choose teen style dress.
I went to one of my friend's photo. She is only 15. But the way she dress is... OMG!! TOO OLD..
All those, high waisted skirt, waist belt, stilettos and those silky top. *IMAGINE it yourself, 15 years old girl wearing all those stuffs.
She look older than me if we stand together. hahahaha.. she is like 19. I am like 16.
Hey teen girl in the world, please choose an appropriate dressing according to your age. Because once u get old, you can experience all those fashion trend. Teens are supposed to enjoy their life. :) AM I RIGHT???
*wink

I am fragile. I know I am.
I am spoil. I know I am.
Fandy is home alone. :) Ah... sometimes, i just miss him. My personal manager. :) No matter what, we always listen to each other problems. We're just like family. :) Yeah we are. :) I treat him like my cousin. hehehehe.. Since we share the same sure name. I miss you Fandy. :)
He is my biggest spoiler.hahahahaha.. :D
Thank you....GRACIAS

Mama is now having fun. To be exact, it has been a month since she left Medan. I know, her luggage's is now as big as a boom. :) I wonder, 2 luggages is enough for her???
I miss her. I want to hug her. I want to kiss mama.. :) I want to tell her, how tired i am here. But, not now. I don't want her to be worry too much. :) I want her to enjoy her holiday.
On the other hand, I am here, suffering from those killer project. :(

Anyway, no matter how killing it is. I have to do my best. I have to!!!
Adi said, no matter what, i have to pass every semester. I wonder, if he told this to himself? I feel that nowaday, he is more motivated to study. I hope he will continue taking master. But i bet he won't. :) He is sometime lazy bum.
I miss him. I miss all of them in SMC. I miss steven, my favorite little brother in SMC. I wonder how is he doing now? He might have grow taller. Somehow, maybe taller than me now.

I just can't wait to go home. I know, Justin(my lil cousin) and Hoki (my doggie) are waiting for me now. I wonder, what will Justin say when he see me later in July?? And, Edwin probably will speak better now. I hope he will be able to remember i am his cie cie. ;) I want to give them BIG BIG hug!!!!
bokoshippseyo!!

I KNOW I SHOULDN'T BE BLOGGING NOW.
I should concentrate on my magazine design. But i can't help it. :D
I MISS BALLET DANCE.
i miss ballet class. The smell of the studio, the floor, mirror around me, the music, the dance and the feel of spirit between me , music and the dance.
mama will maybe enroll me to a ballet studio when she is here this july. I can't wait to be dancing again. Friends are now in grade 6, i am left behind in grade 5. :( pity me. This year, they are going to practice demi-point. And, i am not there, dancing with them :( Then the next year, they will recieve their very first POINTE SHOES... ARGHH,,
That pair fo simple shoes is every ballerina dream. After all hard work for many year, pointe shoes is our dream. :)
I had always been dreaming that i will stand on my point shoes, dancing..
I know, it won't be only a dream, i will get it. I know i will. It's just the matter of time.

I am having my Gawai holiday.

AND

I am so dead.
I am so lazy these day. I mean, not lazy but i am not inspired.
I understand that i need to write essay and several articles, but it's just that I don't know what to write. I have tons of thins to write. But i just don't have the encourage to write.
Even i am too lazy to update my blog.

During the long weekend, shing yin and i cooked. ;)
Today, she cooked her Japanese curry. Yummy...
Yesterday, during my chat session with mahoni laoshi, he told me adi will bring me to Berastagi.
Laoshi had been telling me this twice. Actually I don't really trust laoshi, but since he had been telling me this twice. I decide to belive in laoshi. :)
But, i did ask laoshi, why adi doesn't want to tell me in person? Laoshi said, he 'bu hao yi shi'
hahaha.. kindda funny. In return, laoshi told me to ask Adi about this thing. Well, Adi 'bu hao yi shi.'
I am also , 'bu hao yi shi' as well. ;) well, let us see how thing work when i arrive medan. :)

I hope things are going well to me. :)
Blog soon.

Without a heart-8eight

If I say that I'm in pain,

I'm scared that I'll really be in pain

If I say that I'm sad,

I'm scared that I will shed my tears

Why don't I just laugh, just laugh, just laugh...

But people ask me why I'm crying...

Everyday I cry, I smile, cry then smile again

What's wrong with me, why do I do this repeditely?

Can't differentiate between bottles of alcohol and meals

So far in my life,

I never felt pain this excruciating.

Absentmindedly,

I write your name over and over on a piece of paper.

In a day, the paper becomes black and

I finally let the pen go.

I long for you, I hold on to my cellphone and

let it go my eyes are filling up with tears again, this seperation between us..

I'm without a heart,

I don't have a heart.

So I wouldn't be feeling pain.

Everyday I talk to myself, and put myself under a spell.

But even so, I keep shedding my tears.

If I say that I'm in pain, I'm scared that I'll really be in pain.

If I say that I'm sad, I'm scared that I will shed my tears.

Why don't I just laugh, just laugh, just laugh...

But people ask me why I'm crying,when I'm laughing like this...

After you left, I think I became a fool.

I can't do, I can't do anything, so I die.

I shove myself into a corner and live.

Without you there's nothing left to do.

A day is too long, way too long.

But what was I busy with, to make you feel so lonely,

when you wanted to go shopping, going out with my friends

was so easy, but why couldn't I do the same to you?

I always regretted being so slow,

I don't know if I'm really stupid,

but I still can't let go of our bond.

I'm without a heart, I don't have a heart

Again today, I can see through your lies.

My heart is in so much pain, I'm begging for your help.

How can I smile in times like this?

If I say that I'm in pain, I'm scared that I'll really be in pain.

If I say that I'm sad, I'm scared that I will shed my tears.

Why don't I just laugh, just laugh, just laugh...

But people ask me why I'm crying,when I'm laughing like this...

(let's smile) like couples in dramas

(let's smile) like the title of your blog

(let's smile) happy like in my pastI'm without a heart,

I can't be in painI'm without a heart, I can't be in pain

Let's just laugh, just laugh, just laugh.

Please, please let's stop crying now...

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